I should have expected this...

Saon won't talk to me. I've tried to call him, but apparently he doesn't want to talk to me. Fine. If he wants to live his life that way, then I wish him the best. I gave him all I had and it wasn't enough. I gave him all the love I could muster, and it wasn't enough. I treated him like an equal, like he was worth something, like he mattered...and it wasn't enough. I can't go thru this hurt and uncertainty anymore. I have to think about me. No one else is going to. Not my family, my friends...no one.

I still love him. That will never change, but I cannot and will not let him have another chance to hurt me. He made his choices, and I wasn't one of them.

MorelaterZ--