Snippet of Linkin Park lyric (Easier to Run)
If I could change I would take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
If I could take all the shame to the grave I would
If I could change I would take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
I would take all my shame to the grave
(I think Saon would really like Linkin Park...it has the rap he loves so much...)
This is how I see myself right now. But what is done is done, so even if I could take it all back, there'd be no way. Once it's said or done, you can't take it back. You can be sorry for it, but it's already been done.
I'm not sorry for the things that I've done. I've regretted some of the things I've done, but I'm not sorry I did them. There is a reason for everything we do in this life. We might not know why we do certain things at the time they are done, but there is a reason behind everything.
Why did I go to Picayune, for example? I went to see Saon, to see if we could finally still have a life together. For a time, it looked like we could, but then he went to Illinois, and that went all to hell.
In thinking about the conversations he and I had until that night he broke up with me, and I am convinced that he did it for only one reason: because the bitch was standing right there. She stood over him as he typed and pretty much told him what to say. Because when she wasn't around, he and I still got along. When he said things like, "hurry up, she's home," tells me that she was trying to get her hooks into him, and he finally figured out that she wanted to isolate him from not just me, but I believe everyone he was close to: especially Michele (his soon to be ex wife)
I just hope that the sex was worth all the pain she caused in his life. All she wanted was a young guy to screw around with to validate her attractiveness. I don't believe that she was all that attractive, and certainly not all that young.
If he and I were still meant to be, then it will be.
Everything happens for a reason. Now that I know that, then getting on with it is easier. Not much, but a little.
It is easier to run, but to stay and fight for what you want and what you believe is worth it in the end.
End Rant and philosophizing (<---is that a word????)
Morelaterz--
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
If I could take all the shame to the grave I would
If I could change I would take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
I would take all my shame to the grave
(I think Saon would really like Linkin Park...it has the rap he loves so much...)
This is how I see myself right now. But what is done is done, so even if I could take it all back, there'd be no way. Once it's said or done, you can't take it back. You can be sorry for it, but it's already been done.
I'm not sorry for the things that I've done. I've regretted some of the things I've done, but I'm not sorry I did them. There is a reason for everything we do in this life. We might not know why we do certain things at the time they are done, but there is a reason behind everything.
Why did I go to Picayune, for example? I went to see Saon, to see if we could finally still have a life together. For a time, it looked like we could, but then he went to Illinois, and that went all to hell.
In thinking about the conversations he and I had until that night he broke up with me, and I am convinced that he did it for only one reason: because the bitch was standing right there. She stood over him as he typed and pretty much told him what to say. Because when she wasn't around, he and I still got along. When he said things like, "hurry up, she's home," tells me that she was trying to get her hooks into him, and he finally figured out that she wanted to isolate him from not just me, but I believe everyone he was close to: especially Michele (his soon to be ex wife)
I just hope that the sex was worth all the pain she caused in his life. All she wanted was a young guy to screw around with to validate her attractiveness. I don't believe that she was all that attractive, and certainly not all that young.
If he and I were still meant to be, then it will be.
Everything happens for a reason. Now that I know that, then getting on with it is easier. Not much, but a little.
It is easier to run, but to stay and fight for what you want and what you believe is worth it in the end.
End Rant and philosophizing (<---is that a word????)
Morelaterz--
My name is Stef, and I approve this post. Posted @ 9:55 PM
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